Saturday

It was a professional Saturday here in Helena. It was alright. The last one in Helena for a year. I believe we move to Clarksdale for the spring.

1. I was reminded of some good things that are happening in my class by my PD, Rachel. An observer is always good to point things out like that.
2. My cheesecakes won the bake-off. I made a 'Smores cheesecake and a Black Forest cheesecake. No award or anything, just recognition in front of a restaurant full of people.
3. I graded the math pre-tests my kids took yesterday and Temarja aced it. He got all 23 questions correct.

It is a start, but I really need to practice on noticing the positives and good things that are happening. Too often we get stuck looking at the bad things. Sometimes it goes on for so long, and that is all we discuss, that we forget that there are some good things happening. The environment is challenging, sure, but there are also many good people trying to accomplish many good thigns. When you are living day-to-day sometimes it is hard to realize that.

I'm also not sure if it's being humble or what, but I also learned today that I do not take recognition or praise very well. I am utterly lacking in confidence, and things that go well, I do not take a great deal of pride in for some reason. Just like high school, just like college. I feel like I just do things to do them. Grades, no special source of pride. They were what they were because I did what I did, nothing spectacular, nothing out of the ordinary.

Perhaps my idea of ordinary is just skewed.